Time to get back into this blog thing!

It's been a whole year since my last blog! That boggles my mind. It's fair to say 2018 was NOT kind to me  or my family and 2019 isn't starting off much better to be honest. I started several other blogs and just never finished them. Life has just been hard and crappy and exhausting. This year(on top of the damage done the two previous years) has wreaked havoc on my mental health. I'm begging God for things to be straightened out really quickly and for 2019 to be a better year than the previous 3 years but I'm not holding my breath. Nothing I've begged for this year has happened, so I don't see any reason this will.   Maybe I'll discuss some of what has happened this year in a blog but not this one.

Today I want to talk about something that I haven't shared about much publicly.  2016 was a really really hard year much like 2018. I was struggling to deal with things and struggling to stay sane and strong. I was just struggling(again just like right now). I've always watched Youtube regularly but in 2016 my time on Youtube grew exponentially as I struggled to find something that gave a little bit of hope and happiness and a little bit of a distraction. Somehow I stumbled on to a Youtube page of woman who makes reborn dolls(her wife also make reborns) and within a few videos, I was hooked! I can't even tell you how I stumbled across her videos or really what part of 2016 it was(well I know it had to be Spring or Summer, I think Summer). But I can tell you it's been quite a journey for me.

I can't afford real artist made reborns. I so wish I could and I enter every giveaway I see. I think the chances of me every winning a giveaway are pretty close to nothing but I figure it can't hurt to enter lol. But I have a doll I've been dressing and "playing" with since that time. She was bought at Wal-Mart. She's just a plain old doll that we probably didn't spend but mybe $15 for. But I weighted her(well in my own way..don't ask lol) and I've bought clothes for her and I just enjoy her so much.
There is just nothing like cuddling a baby or shopping for a baby. I find it very relaxing and fun. It makes me happy.

A lot of people think those who make and own reborns are nuts and they'll probably think I am nuts for having a doll and that's fine. Everyone is entitled to their opinions. I think about it like this. Lots of people sends lots of money on videos games to pretend to be someone they are not, in a world that often times doesn't exists, doing things they'll never do, and people don't bat an eyelash at that. But people pull out a baby and dress and cuddle them and they lose their minds lol. I mean everyone has things that relax them and make them happy, for me and other's that thing happens to be dolls.
I've given my doll the name Aria. I just love the name and I think it fits her so well! Here are some pictures of her! As I said she's just a plain ordinary doll from Walmart. She doesn't really look real(although I think she's still pretty flipping cute lol).

I got another doll for Christmas! She's a little bit more expensive but still not an actual artist painted reborn. After I've had some time to enjoy her and dress her and get a feel for her, I'll post a blog about her. I haven't even named her yet. I've got a couple of names in mind but I haven't had the chance to really hold and dress her and figure out which name I think fits her best. But I'm super excited to do all of that!